Friday, September 9, 2016

MELATONIN

He found his use of melatonin made him melancholy and depressed. 
He did not know what else to prescribe it to, or what else to blame it on. 
They would be dark corners to clings to, and yet without sleep…he shuttered.
The insomnia is relentless. He would spend whole nights, night- after-night, craving it…instead he dealt with not dreaming, not resting, but thrashing, and stirring, and hours of staring at nothing. So best not go ridiculing that which you do not understand. Something I’ve grown to depend on. Do not deprive me of that. I have had enough. And enough said. So, I guess the answer to your question “ do you want to go for espresso?”  Strikes me as absurd.
 Why would I need a jolt of caffeine before bed….even decaf, ….to sleep on….to mess with my head? Ridiculous. But I’ll tag along and have an herb tea….a chamomile might help. Help me sleep. 
Have I mentioned the insomnia?

v

Sunday, September 4, 2016

THE BOX

 
She asked him to make her a simple pine box, nothing extravagant, because she could not afford it. It was to be three and one-half feet long, and eighteen inches wide. The top was to be hinged or slide open and closed. She would need it lined with some simple cloth, and maybe some foam padding. He told her he’d build the box, but the padding would need to be done by an upholsterer. She wept, because all she had, was going to make this box. She realized she could not afford to upholster it. The carpenter said he was sorry and left. But he came back a short time later, and having given it some thought, he told the woman he would do the job if she paid only for materials, and that should save her enough to have the box lined. She thanked him and explained that the box was for a doll, a very special doll that her Mother had left her. She would soon be traveling far away, and wanted it safe to transport. She thanked him again and again, but he was uncomfortable with the outpouring, and excused himself. Before he did, he told her it would be ready in three days. He would discuss the project with the upholsterer, but she would have to deal with the price. She agreed, and the next day she ventured into town to do just that. It turns out that the upholsterer was a woman that had taken over her family business, because her husband had gone blind. She was immediately suspicious about the box. She asked again what the usage was, and the reply was the same. The woman explained her financial situation and asked, again, that it be simple. In that case, the business woman queried, wouldn’t a plain foam lining be enough? The doll would safe enough. The woman demurred, stating, that if she could, she would line the box with red velvet, tufted with gold button - the doll was that important to her. The upholsterer stated that this must be a special doll indeed, and the woman, not able to hold back her tears any longer, confirmed that it was loved by her Mother, and was all she had left of the depleted estate. The upholsterer was a hard woman, but was touched by her tears. She stated that she would do the best she could, that perhaps she had scraps from a larger job that might fit the bill. She would also need three days, from the time she received the box from the carpenter. That was an unexpected delay, and since the woman had only a week to prepare, it would push her right against her deadline. The train will not wait, but what else could she do?
She agreed and they parted.
Six days later she went to the upholsterer’s shop and was overcome by the obvious care and craftsmanship of the box. Not only was it not pine, but oak with inlays, and it also had a lining of red velour, tufted with gold buttons. It was so beautifully executed, she was overcome. The upholsterer fixed her some tea, and had her sit awhile, while she collected her emotions. Once she had done so, she gathered up the box, handling it as if it were magical, and after thanking the woman profusely, she made her way down the road.
Once she arrived home, she took the doll and gently placed it in the box. There was little time left. That night she would bury it, and in the morning, leave this town for good.



V